I would have liked to be with you tonight! Oh my God, how much I wished, but my ghosts were there around, just telling me that it was not for me.
My bed is waiting, my smile is resting. My dreams and goals are growing and my lonelyness has become for ever. Nothing cares meanwhile. It was all anyway. I knew it since my hands hit your face with a higher pain for me, with the highest lose in my life.
This is not the first time I cry, for sure. This is not the first time, someone who I love, just lets me go. But this is the last time, I promise, that I cry for you.
Tomorrow is another year, another chance.. and I am just taking the opportunity. The cabala to start over, not complaining, not regretting, just reloaded... without the huge charge of being me, the one who you know and can't love. Me, the one.
Its time to get drunk of pain, to feel inside the reasons I use to be alive, to keep trying, to keep saving into my heart. I just dont know what to say.
This is the last time, its a great cabala to make useful.
This is the gift that you could never give me.
